Monday, June 8, 2009
My dear sweet grandma Emma Lou passed away Saturday night. In ways it is a blessing because she isn't suffering anymore, but to me it is very tragic. She was my best friend(besides Jason). She practically raised me while I was growing up because I lived with my dad. There wasn't anything I couldn't ask her...crap I remember the time she tried giving me the sex talk... EMBARRASSING! We became even closer the summer I graduated as I was stuck home because of a stupid mistake I made. She would tell me over and over how glad she was I got in trouble because it brought me Jason and back to the gospel. I would stay at her house for hours and hours on end just talking to her and trying to learn things I would need to know to be a good wife and mom! Not to mention the endless questions I had about church subjects and the temple. Grandma Lou was honestly a saint. I've never met such a woman who loves the Savior more. Plus her family meant everything to her. She would do anything for any of her siblings and all of us. She was a compassionate woman who always gave a 100% in everything. In April I got to take her to Lander,Wy so Colton could do some dental work on her. Talk about a long trip. Grandma was so particular about everything! It was hilarious! On our way back home the next day she acted like she was having a stroke or something. I've never drove so fast in my life. I was so scared that she was going to die on me that trip home. I kept asking her if she was doing ok while I drove a hundred miles an hour. She got so sick of me asking she cussed me out. HAHA What a spitfire! She ended up in the hospital for a few days with problems with her lungs. (She's been very sick for a few years now) When we got to take her home that time, Jas and I were helping her in her car and she gave us hugs. Well she kept a firm hold on Jas. She sat and rubbed his back and rubbed his cheek and told him how much she loved him... She loved him more than me I think! He is always rubbing it in how much she would tell him she loved him! When she got bad enough in May that we had to take her back to the hospital, I went and visited her everyday a few times a day. She'd always sit and tell me, "I'm holding on just so I can see your baby!" She'd never let me leave without her rubbing my tummy and she'd tell him how excited she was to be the first to hold him. Little did we know she was very right when she said that she'd be the first to hold him. I guess that is why he hasn't came down to us yet. Heavenly Father knew Grandma would want more than a week with my baby boy. So now I bet she keeps him up there for awhile... Hopefully telling him to be so good for me. :)
I can't believe that she is actually gone. I'm so glad I got to have her in my life. I wish I wouldn't have taken her for granted when I was younger. Or even in High School. You really don't know what you've got til its gone. I'm glad it's not forever though. I'm so thankful that I can go to the temple and sit in the Celestial Room. I can't wait til I make it there again. I know I will be able to feel her so strongly, it makes me cry just thinking about it and how the Lord's plan really works. I can't even begin to imagine living my life any other way now. I love you Grandma, thanks for all you have taught me in my life. I will miss you so very much.
Posted by Kayla Merritt at 3:20 PM