Monday, June 8, 2009

Till We Meet Again...


My dear sweet grandma Emma Lou passed away Saturday night. In ways it is a blessing because she isn't suffering anymore, but to me it is very tragic. She was my best friend(besides Jason). She practically raised me while I was growing up because I lived with my dad. There wasn't anything I couldn't ask her...crap I remember the time she tried giving me the sex talk... EMBARRASSING! We became even closer the summer I graduated as I was stuck home because of a stupid mistake I made. She would tell me over and over how glad she was I got in trouble because it brought me Jason and back to the gospel. I would stay at her house for hours and hours on end just talking to her and trying to learn things I would need to know to be a good wife and mom! Not to mention the endless questions I had about church subjects and the temple. Grandma Lou was honestly a saint. I've never met such a woman who loves the Savior more. Plus her family meant everything to her. She would do anything for any of her siblings and all of us. She was a compassionate woman who always gave a 100% in everything. In April I got to take her to Lander,Wy so Colton could do some dental work on her. Talk about a long trip. Grandma was so particular about everything! It was hilarious! On our way back home the next day she acted like she was having a stroke or something. I've never drove so fast in my life. I was so scared that she was going to die on me that trip home. I kept asking her if she was doing ok while I drove a hundred miles an hour. She got so sick of me asking she cussed me out. HAHA What a spitfire! She ended up in the hospital for a few days with problems with her lungs. (She's been very sick for a few years now) When we got to take her home that time, Jas and I were helping her in her car and she gave us hugs. Well she kept a firm hold on Jas. She sat and rubbed his back and rubbed his cheek and told him how much she loved him... She loved him more than me I think! He is always rubbing it in how much she would tell him she loved him! When she got bad enough in May that we had to take her back to the hospital, I went and visited her everyday a few times a day. She'd always sit and tell me, "I'm holding on just so I can see your baby!" She'd never let me leave without her rubbing my tummy and she'd tell him how excited she was to be the first to hold him. Little did we know she was very right when she said that she'd be the first to hold him. I guess that is why he hasn't came down to us yet. Heavenly Father knew Grandma would want more than a week with my baby boy. So now I bet she keeps him up there for awhile... Hopefully telling him to be so good for me. :)
I can't believe that she is actually gone. I'm so glad I got to have her in my life. I wish I wouldn't have taken her for granted when I was younger. Or even in High School. You really don't know what you've got til its gone. I'm glad it's not forever though. I'm so thankful that I can go to the temple and sit in the Celestial Room. I can't wait til I make it there again. I know I will be able to feel her so strongly, it makes me cry just thinking about it and how the Lord's plan really works. I can't even begin to imagine living my life any other way now. I love you Grandma, thanks for all you have taught me in my life. I will miss you so very much.

14 comments:

Schad fam said...

She will be missed by so many! I always loved her! It breaks my heart that I wont be able to see her next time I come to Idaho to visit, but you are right, she has been sick for a long time and its great that she dosent have to suffer anymore! We love you and your famiy! Kym

Tyler and Sara said...

You have such a spiritual side. I am quite impressed! Let me know if you need anything!

Hillary said...

Kayla.
I love you and I am so thankful to consider you my sister. You have been such an amazing example to me over the past year and a half. Let me know if theres anything I can do for you...I'll even babysit for free (;
Love you!

COURTNEY said...

Im so sorry for your loss. your grandma was a very sweetlady and such a joy to talk to while taking care of her. IF there is anything you need just let us know.

Kym, Shaun and Riley said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your grandma. It's always hard to see someone you love go, but like you said, she won't be suffering anymore.

ThompsonFamily said...

I think your Grandma is pretty and you kind of look like her. I am sorry to hear about your loss. You wrote some really nice things about her.
It just doesnt seem fair sometimes though does it? I lost my Dad the week that I had Cooper, it was just too awful for words. But your little baby will help you get through it.
I think its neat that she will have him all to herself for a while. I am glad you are close to the church and can have the comfort of knowing that you will get to see her again.
Let me know if you need anything!

Nate and Amanda Bunn said...

Kayla your grandma was a great lady.. she treated all your friends like grad kids i think she treated all the dingle kids like grandkids!! i loved when we went over there.. she will be missed!! if you need anything call. I know how you feel. I was really close to my grandma too. but my grandma never tried to give me the sex talk!! LOL.. love ya kayla!!

Trevor and Amy said...

Gosh Kayla, Thanks for making me cry! What a neat post! I'm sure she is holding your little boy and kissing him and giving him specific instructions. We are so blessed to know that we will see her again! How lucky we are to have the gospel in our lives. Hope you are feeling good!

Deidra said...

Hey sweet girl, I know how hard it is to loose your grandma....life is never the same! It was so hard for me that she would never see any of my children on this earth, but maybe it was more important for her to see him before he got to me. I just love you and hope you can get through this. Let me know if you need anything!
Love,
Deidra

Taryn and Cameron said...

I am so sorry, I know how it is to be raised by grandparents. It really is a comfort to know they are still with you. I am so sure she is telling baby boy to be good for his mommy and daddy!

Thompson Three said...

So, so sorry about your grandma Kayla. Sorry I missed you Monday morning to tell you that. I'm so impressed with your testimony and I'm sure your grandma is, too. What a great example you are setting for those around you!

Doug and Katie Alleman said...

Kayla, I'm so sorry about your loss. I started crying the first couple lines I read, It reminded me of when my dad died. It was a struggle in my life, and I kinda fell away from stuff, I'm so glad you got to talk to her and get so close to her, I really wish I could take some stuff back with my dad, like the last thing that came out of my mouth to him was i hated him. I am soo glad you got so close to your grandma! AND Kayla you and Jason are such a great example to me and Doug! Thanks!!

Tyson and Emily said...

Hey Kayla, It's so hard to believe that she's gone isn't it. I will miss her too, one thing I will always remember about Aunt Emma Lou is how sincere she was. She always made me feel like I meant something to her eventhough I didn't see her often. My blog is private but if you'd like an invite send me your email at tysonhayes@gmail.com. Hope everything goes well with you and your baby in the next few days!
Emily

Debbie said...

Kayla, I'm sorry to hear about your sweet grandma and sorry I couldn't make it up for the funeral. I hope everything is going good and if you need anything feel free to give me a holler. Good luck with everything, I'll stop by next time I'm in the area. Tell all the family hi-

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